Oh Honey, F**K the PAST
Still caught-up with your past? Do you reimagine circumstances when you go to your bed, pondering over scenarios where the outcomes may have differed?
IT IS FUTILE TO DWELL IN THE PAST!
Live your life to the fullest, live as if there’s no tomorrow, cherish the gift of “life”, be grateful for all the blessings you are bestowed with……the list is just too long to state in this essay. You may confuse me as another one of those fictional characters from books and movies or the random people from TedTalk but even I, at times, ponder over my life and ask, “Am I living it to the fullest? How would I even know it?” Moreover, after every minor inconvenience that brings me down, I have the typical question “Is this the life I ever imagined? Is it worth it?” Please do not mistake me for being suicidal but when you end up with some philosophy courses thanks to the enrollment system of your university, you are a philosopher in your way, evaluating every situation for greater meaning. What is the unique feature of Faaiz Gilani that makes him different from the 6.5 billion others living on this globe?
As a junior at university, won’t deny the fact that my life has been wonderful so far with minor hiccups along the way. Family is well-established, entitled to perks not enjoyed by most, studying at one of the most prestigious universities with the blessing of a healthy body. Academic and social life are also fairly good in my opinion. Does this make me unique? Aren’t there thousands of homes in the society where I live (considered for the elites)? Now and then, don’t I find someone more intelligent than me or someone who’s social life may seem like the radiant sun while mine may be compared with a typical bedroom lamp? For me, the last year of the A-Level and first year of university brought a new perspective to life. Never-ending drama, academic workload, event after event, making and breaking friendships, bearing people despite being aware of their fakeness and willingness to push you down at the first opportunity. However, you question every other person from the same period and their life stories would be almost the same (add teenage love too) and then again you contemplate what makes my life so valuable if everyone deals with the same shit?
Out of the twenty-one years of life I faced, the past experiences and emotional baggage has made me arrive at the concrete fact that DWELLING ON THE PAST IS IDIOTIC & FUTILE! How can you even make your life special, if you cannot get over the things that happened in the past? What would you even do? Hope that one day there’s a mini-reunion and all your pals or significant other halves return to you as if nothing ever happened? Don’t know about you all, but, I think I’ve read that life is meant to be enjoyed and cherished rather than filled with toxicity and emotional baggage.
If someone decides to leave you with unanswered questions, you won’t die with loneliness, which I can promise you. When one chapter of your life ends, another page is inked as you meet more people who are willing to accept you for who you are rather, pulling you out of the depressive, toxic life you previously lived. If someone bitches about you, ask yourself, is it even worth the effort to fight them? Would people change their opinions about you just because someone spread gossip about you? If they do, honey, be happy as more fake people left your life. Smile! No one is permanent and eternal, everyone has to go, and keep your faith in the Forever-existing entity because as long as you are optimistic with a firm conviction for a better future, nothing is stopping you.
So the question still has to be answered, how can I make my life one of a kind? The answer may be found by various popularized examples, if I believe in myself like Cristiano Ronaldo (he is widely hailed for his efforts for his rise unlike Messi), anything is possible. If I work hard and enjoy my activities, I’ll always have fun. Life has a strange way of altering your personality. Personally, the super-sensitive kid who tried his best to keep everyone happy now doesn’t even give a F**K if someone develops an alternative perception of your personality or makes an effort to hinder your progress. Remember, weak and toxic people find satisfaction in character-assassination, dwelling in the past, carrying grudges, making you their primary target, hoping that their attempt would help them get your attention. With determination, everything I aim for is destined to be achieved. In the end, if I always do what I enjoy, I’ll be bound to enjoy life. It’s not a matter of making my life unique; it’s just a matter of doing what I believe as enjoyable and right. If I live by this philosophy, then I will be able to prove that life is worth living and should be cherished.
